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Date: Sunday, June 24, 2007 Time: 3:25 AM finally, i finished my 2nd camp. hahas.. which marks e end of my 2 weeks holiday too. sadded.. anyway, yea life still haf to go on. hahas.. Chinese Orchestra Camp was gooD =) of cuz wif my darling wif mi lar.. we recce night walk, be scarers.. and, cycle e whole of east coast back n forth ( my legs are aching like shit ) and work together.. tis camp is slightly different frm e camp i attended in e past.. leisure camp, lots of time to rest, laughters.. hahas.. e best is at east coast lar. =) saw their teamwork n bonding. yeah man hehes.. dear came over to my place after camp n rest until night b4 he go home n slp. haha. ma fan ni le lar.. i noe tis 2 nights we haven been slping well, or say, slp less den 6hrs in 2 nights? hahas.. now u go n slp bahs. =D muacks.. although i'm in camp, i went for dance too. man eater self prac on fri n rehearsal on sat.. cant deny i'm totally lack of energy n blur like sotong. tried to concentrate but i cant.. make alot of mistakes, everything goes wrong, cannot get into formation..i noe i noe, is my prob.. who ask mi to be so busy wif so many ccas? or shud i say i shud just concentrate on 1 right? everything i do has a reason, just tt i dun wish to say out.. and, none bother to ask to, so i dun find e point to say anyway.. i find myself worst in dance, suck at technique, suck at turning, suck at controlling.. more until i dunno how to say out. haa. i will continue practising n work hard, except i'm just slower bahs.. failed as a fren, totally. i just knew eve left on thurs, when read someone's blog.. haa, i dun even noe there's a farewell party for her.. chatted wif her b4 NRA camp, she cares abt mi.. and i ask how she is too.. rmb e times we're together in e past, =) is e onli thing i can say. even though we're in different class, and we rarely had e chance to see each other and tok, but still.. hais. i'm sad. i dunno what to say. =) take care, i realli hope to see u back soon =) is it my own problem or my mental prob? i could not differentiate between real n unreal.. there's once i chatted on msn wif my pri sch fren. hahas. miss her like nuts. frm pri sch until poly. it's almost 10yrs le.. 10yrs lehs, so damn long.. but like i say, everything changes bcuz of certain issues and happenings.. maybe that's part of life and we haf to go thru tis stage bah.. i no longer feel e same and i bet she dun feel e same for e frenship also le.. mayb is i tink too much, but i could not help it. . so much things ran thru my mind, i realli hope for a gd rest. or i nd someone to tok to.. but someone hu can understand mi now.. last time i haf, now.. i dunno how to trust pple again. my confidence has dropped until 0. . tried my best to pull back e gap, but it no longer help even when asking them to take care, rest well.. cuz everything has changed. frenship is fragile. i agree frm e bottom of my heart. =( Labels: mentally tired frm everything. |