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Date: Friday, October 06, 2006 Time: 1:34 AM can i abuse u for one post? can i abuse u for one post? hais..feeling damn emo now.. feels like thrashing everythin out from my heart. no wher, but here.. dunno why i'm feeling tis way. but i'm feeling hurt, neglected.. hurts so much to love one person.. hurts so much when e person u like dun care abt u.. hurts so much to forget e person u like.. hurts so much to force yrself to be as busy as u can, so tt u can stop thinkin abt him.. too much commitments.. dance, GL, work, CO, sch.. everyday is so packed.. hardly a time to rest n enjoy.. why? mayb i dun haf to do tis.. mayb i'm forcing myself to do tis.. juz to kip mi occupied.. hao xiang bu yao zai xi huan ta.. realli wish i nv noe him b4 or make myself love him more.. everytime i say.. "ya, nth le. ya, solved le. mi n him is pefectly normal frens.." i wish to feel tis way.. he will nv noe tis, or he will nv read it.. best if he nv.. if not, he will ignore mi. dun tok to mi. dun reply mi.. hais. can i juz dun gif a damn to how he feels? can i? can i?!!!! liking him seems to be a wrong thing. but yet i dun regret at all. i wish to be his gd fren, his close fren. but i will nv be. ever since he noes i like him, it will nv be.. i guess, tis is e 1st time i go head n heels over a guy. a guy hu dun care abt u, a guy who may not treasure u in e end.. goin crazy le.. feel like letting go of everythin.. "wo zhi shi shou le dian shang.." but e wound will nv heal.. for a LONG time.. sobss.. my love.. wan an.. *** *** ***** *****.. sobs.. |