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Date: Saturday, September 16, 2006 Time: 2:33 AM emo-yong.. emo cuz of him..
*feeling so so emo.. hais.. tis few days.. i kip staring into e blank space lehs.. in bus, in sch.. always seem to be deep in thoughts.. sometimes i do realised tt..no one can understand mi anymore lehs.. NO ONE.. i realli felt like a changed person.. it's juz, i dun understand them.. n they wun understand mi either.. i realli felt so sad.. miss my buddies.. i can act happie.. but, deep inside it feels to be tearing.. pathetic rite? i do think i look like a gong gong to everyone bah.. e blur queen in their image.. when i need someone to tok to.. i'm at a lost.. total lost.. hu can i find..? seriously dunno.. haf been in NP for one sem le.. so many things happened.. esp my relationship probs. ha.. i guess tt's e cause of my sadness bah.. why cling on sth which doesnt belong to u in e 1st place? feels like a leech. hahas.. haf been crying, blur-ing n getting on wif life.. i noe, we've said tt we'll onli be frens.. but, e feelings in my heart cant fade.. how do i tell him tt.. even though it needs time.. if i can forget, i would haf done tt in april.. ha, wun drag until tt day le. but, isnt love blind? seriously, i dunnO..am i stupid.. tired. tired. tired.. can i be free from all tis probs..? ah.. feels like crying.. hais.. why do i exist..? for hu? ah.. goin crazy.. i onli noe, i shall close my heart n feelings.. cuz, i dun feel tt there's someone hu can understand mi animore.. not even my family.. since i joined dance.. i dun think they can anymore.. it hurts.. my family lehs.. but they dun understand mi. loner yong. loner queen.. where can u go... sobs.. |