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Date: Friday, August 04, 2006 Time: 11:26 PM -i missed u..
juz feel like blogging now.. hmm. haven see him for few days le.. wondering how he's doin.. have been thinking alot nowadays.. he told mi b4, dat he dun wish to haf relationship now. hahas.. wat shud i do. tt's e past lar. hahas. but now ne..? feel like hiding my feelings all e way.. sometimes, i do wish he nv knew i like him b4.. mayb.. eveythin will turn out fine now i supposed.. bcuz of last time.. i'm hurting rite inside my heart.. feel like crying everythin out.. i need a shoulder to lean on.. how i wish, when i need him, he will be there.. but e thought of tis.. sadness la. hais.. admire those frens hu haf been in a long relationship. muz treasure.. hehes.. i guess my love for him, will nv make it into e fruit's phase. even if, mayb in my dream.. somehow i noe how bad e outcome will be.. stupidly n stubbornly waiting.. will i irritate him? i guess so.. whenever i sms him or chat in msn wif him, i'm always initiating.. sometimes, i do feel tired.. watch a show, a gal once said " guys wun treasure if it's e gal hu has been initiating.. they take it for granted.." mayb i shud play hard to get.. but for him.. seems like i'm e onli one goin on.. he dun even noe, or care.. hahas. dunno lar.. juz wanna let things out of my heart.. feels much better.. |