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Date: Thursday, July 06, 2006 Time: 12:17 AM *my feelings. my thoughts.*
*hais.. haben tok to him for several days le.. everytime when i c him online, i kip staring at his nick.. i dunno whether shud i click n tok ma.. cuz everytime i start, ends up NTH to chat abt. silence.. how i wish he will start.. but it nv happen b4.. chatting wif him takes lots of courage. whenever i end up nth to chat, i feel veri sad. hais. dunno what to do. my heart starts wif a whole, ended up hurting myself lots n lots of times.. loving someone can be painful ar.. esp one sided love. haha. haven't been slping well for e past few days.. feeling vexed.. tired. mentally n physically. how i wish there's a holiday rite now, wanna relax myself.. hahas. ares having chalet in sep. goin sentosa wif swee yin n cheryl. preparing for dance production. cool.. busy mi.. kip mi occupied.. so tt.. i can forget abt him again.. hahas. why ar, everytime muz kip forgetting him. dunno lar.. but hor, how i wish he will care for mi. even if it is a short sms!! i dun mind.. it will make mi smile all day long.. e moment he say hi to mi, e feeling is suuper great.. veri happie lo. hahas. i missed those days.. hais.. cheryl is oso goin thru tis.. i can understand.. or shud i say, we can understand how each other feel.. longing for sth.. care. attention frm e guy we love. getting close to him. hais.. is it too much.. mentally dead. whenever i tink of my ex.. i rmb e care they showered on mi.. even though not stead, like god bro or veri close guy frens.. sometimes i find their care veri warming.. it juz makes mi feel happie.. they took care of mi.. stead or frens, they played an impt role in my life since sec 1.. i haf Timothy kor kor, yao sheng kor, guo qing kor, zhan yue kor.. close frens like jiunn yuan, jin da, jun wei, jin hon di di, jian hui di di, wei ting jie, jia jia mei mei, hong hong.. n many many more.. so mani pple care for mi.. it's bcoz of them, i can pull until tis long.. needa thk all my frens. w/o them, my life wont be so exciting.. cheryl n swee yin, my best pals in 1F02. we'll strive together n work hard! hahas.. tt's all.. dreaming abt him all day long.. goin bonkers soon. |