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Date: Thursday, February 16, 2006 Time: 10:59 PM *i'm tired. realli tired.*
saw han lin n melissa tis few days too.. they came to find mi. haha.. den chat for awhile lor. once, ask mi if i wanna go eat pizza.. haha.. cute lar.. haf been occupying myself wif work.. once, i cried at nite.. n i drank.. no choice, i realli felt damn stupid sad.. dowan to find anione to console mi.. no use, sometimes, onli talking.. sat down at my study table.. -read letters, see pictures. tears rolled down..- finally graduated frm sec sch.. can my probs graduate frm there too? dunno.. realli dunno.. i can onli confide in my cousin.. she's always consoling mi.. telling mi wat to do.. nice, isnt it? it's my life.. tis is my life.. sometimes, i juz hate pple to comment on it.. watever choice i made, i haf a reason.. not anyhow.. but, i'm juz being labelled somehow. i hate it, yet i cant control it. haha. wat is tis man.. ever since after chi new year, i've changed into another person once again. caused by some things. i couldnt control myself ani more. i spent e saddest chi new year. luckily, i went to m'sia to heal my feelings. better somehow.. every nite, i kip thinking. wat haf i done wrong? hu am i? i'm no longer e liiyong everyone noes.. sad to disappoint pple. i cant find back myself animore.. i cant.. tis gal, is being tied wif so mani probs.. she wanna escape.. she dowan to find anione animore.. juz wanna be alone.. she dun mind.. cuz, she dun understand animore.. e pple arnd her.. are they true? or are they faking? hu am i to them? fren? foe? so mani probs rushed into her mind.. she trusts them, yet.. tis trust is goin to disappear ani time.. everyday is a thinking day for her.. until, she realli collaspe tonite.. cant control her tears.. sobs.. i noe, life muz carry on.. i will work even harder, when i go poly.. i muz strive, to get into University. onli then, i can find my answer... |