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✩ LiYonG ' vAnEssA
✩ 9-TeeN gOin 20 .
✩ 30.08.89 .
✩ NUS Undergraduate tO be.
✩ Only Music in my life.

♥ Leow Jiunn Yuan (:

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*Able to Survive in Chemistry
*Able tO Graduate with Honours in CHEM
*Maintain GPA 3.5 and abv for every Semester
*One Birthday wish to come True
*Visit Taiwan!
*Genting Trip in June!
*New Shoes and clothes :)
*fOrever with my Darling :D

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[haiz.. dunno wat's gotten into mi..]

haiz.. 2nd time bloggin.. juz now i went for a slp.. frm noon to 7pm.. long horx?slp till so shuang.. but still veri tired.. haiz.. eyes so painful.. cuz i cried.. cried till i slp.. i thought of those moments wif him again.. i miz him.. alot.. i cried once more.. till e pillow is soaked wif tears.. i noe, it is impossible for us to be together.. i jux hope for a miracle to happen.. but i noe, it wun.. i wanted continue loving him.. but i scared.. i'll juz collasped ani time.. he once told mi," LoViNg SoMeOnE iSn'T a CrImE..." ya.. it isn't a crime.. but i juz wondered.. did i love e wrong guy? he is a nice n caring guy.. he knew how to cheer mi up.. he is different frm others.. but i juz dunno.. realli dunno.. i onli noe tt i love him.. realli love him.. i wun forget him.. i wun.. cuz he is special.. to mi.. now, he is e will tt encourages mi to live on.. wat if he left mi? am i goin to juz faint n die? i dunno.. but.. he had oredi left.. i'm juz clingin on to a small hope.. wishing for e best of it..

sometimes.. when i log onto msn.. i saw him online.. i'm so glad.. in juz a moment of time, he offline le.. it isn't e 1st time tt he do tt.. it seems like.. everitime i'm online, he is offline.. when i saw tis, i cried.. my tears dropped.. i juz felt like he is avoiding mi.. when i asked him, he say no.. but, i juz gt tt feeling tt he is.. ever since.. he din cal mi.. i'm juz not myself animore.. pple may say tt i'm juz stupid.. blur.. ben dan.. it's not worth it to love n wait for him, they juz say, hu noes wat i'm goin thru now? hu exactly noes? no one, no one understands mi.. cuz.. they had nv been here b4.. sometimes.. he realli hurts mi alot.. i juz had to put on a fake smile in front n left wif a broken heart.. y can't i juz cry in front of him? i had to fake, which i dun like.. but it seems to be a habit le.. i noe, he will care for mi.. shud i be contented? i juz felt tt i've been tricked..wat happened e past few months realli seem to be a dream.. e times i had.. haiz.. i felt like crying again le.. i noe, we wun be back like e past again.. it wun happen de.. when he hurt himself or he is sick, i'm so worried abt him.. yet i dun hab e courage to go n care for him.. cuz somebody will.. she has gt e rights.. but i dun hav.. i'm juz nobody to him.. i shud not have existed in e 1st place.. even hh say ask mi change name.. cuz he always mixed mi up wif another person.. haiz.. mayb lo..

i hope tt he would be happi..last time, when he made his choice.. i realli collasped.. i dunno wat to do.. cuz.. eveythin ended..when he felt like chatting, he would sms mi.. which realli made mi glad.. yest, while i was at e chalet.. i thought abt him.. alot of things flashed back in my memory.. i juz wondered n wondered.. haiz.. wat shud i do now.. juz wat shud i do.. i'm tired.. realli tired.. sobs sobs...